Friday October 24, 2024 late AM

I did not have time to do the rest of my blog last night, I am pretty sure I had a non-alcoholic beer and that always seems put me to sleep for the most part.  I don’t know why!  But I got ten hours of sleep last night which was strange to be said.  I usually get nine or eight hours but ten that was strange.  That being said I am happy I got that amount of sleep as I did not have a dream or a night mare!   Though I just dropped dead for ten hours!  That being said it is a wonder that I got a that amount of sleep as some one was screaming at top of the lungs, “code red!”  Some thing you just don’t do!  I was going to confront him, he was also swearing at the top of his longs too!  A usual thing but I choose to ignore as that people will confront him sooner or later with that.  Screaming Code red  means fire!    That being said I don’t know if that was a prank to get attention. But I am not awarding that to him.   That being said I just turned and went back to sleep!  

Why does he have to act that way is beyond me!  That being I will be doing some recording for the next album soon enough that needs to be done! I also found that I can’t record my music with this loud mouth in the house, for one I still can’t believe that he was literally screaming fire. 

As i  hit next the window, I see that then sun is trying to come out!  That being said I hope it does because I would like to be in the forest and just walk around!   I was holding the lapis luzli stone up the fire place when I saw the sun trying to  peek out!  It is always better for me when the sun is out or dry at least as I am an empath.  I that being said I feek other peoples emotions and feelings nit just mine!  It is a gift but it is also rather annoying -when person has a freak out and then you freak out is not exactly fucking fun.  But it comes with the territory!  I would as a kid know that my parents are other people would feel something because I would feel the same feeling as them and project it back to them! That was always annoying!  Personal it is annoying but also it is an adaptation,  an adaptation meaning that well, let me find out  what that means but I heard that  in science class, it means you change for your environment for the better.  

ad·ap·ta·tion

/ˌadapˈtāSHən/

noun

1. the action or process of adapting or being adapted.

   "the adaptation of teaching strategy to meet students' needs"

   Similar:

   converting

   conversion

   alteration

   modification

   adjustment

   changing

   transformation

   remodeling

   revamping

   reshaping

   reconstruction

   tailoring

   customizing

   conformity

   acclimatization

   accommodation

   attunement

   familiarization

   habituation

   orientation

   conditioning

   inurement

   hardening

   seasoning

   acculturation

   assimilation

   integration

   domestication

   naturalization

   blending in

   fitting in

   settling in

   settling down

   acclimation

   • a movie, television drama, or stage play that has been adapted from a written work, typically a novel.

     "filming her adaptation of a beloved children's book"
   • BIOLOGY

     a change or the process of change by which an organism or species becomes better suited to its environment

     
     

     
     

     
     

     
     

     
     

     That being said I have a lot of adaptations that other people would not think as just that one thing is i am able to retain more knowledge and information but don’t ask me to remember a pin pad or anything involving  numbers.  I have to remember this bitch ass pin pad at work and I can’t for the life of me remember it the next week!  It is so annoying but everything else I remember like the back of my hand!  Don’t ask about numbers, it was a long and sorted relationship that I would rather forget.    One is that I was learning math home work for the 3rd grade, and my father well let’s say he needed to work on emotional regulation and he blew up!   And in my fashion I blew too and it was an ugly ass mess for the most part.  Let’s just say I did not watch mummies alive again that night because of his temper and mine.  It was around this time of year mid to light October when he lost is marbles over a fucking math assignment. 

     
     

     That I dont think I was one to do math, I that as a kid that math was demonic!   Since then I had to be bridged to do my homework even spelling.  It was not a good time was grade school.  Soon now you know how I ended up on Ritalin there you go I hate hate assignments unless it is something I am genuinely interested in.  That being said high school was not a bad show and I was able to pursue my interests in Ernest and never really had any home work from undesirable subjects!   That was what I think about neurodivergence as.  It is also an adaptation too and it helps more than it instigates issues….in my opinion. 

     
     

     Though my parents thought it was the comeplete opposite in this case, they thought my neurodivergent traits were a hinderance.  That being said I don’t like my parents behaviour.  That being I don’t really care for the behaviour, that was one thing that drove me insane was the be normal attitude that they held for kids my age.

     
     

     I don’t like talking about my parents this way but they were heavily flawed humans, who took to the bottle want stressed or pissed.  Not a good coping mechanism…..I learned quickly that the bottle nor the rest of the periodic table was not the answer to life’s problems.  Chemical and substance abuse is just that abuse too!  I never really cared for people who drank, smoke, or do drugs!  Though they have some mental health problems that cause them to turn to the fuck stuff in the first place.    

     
     

     
     

     I don’t know what today is going to bring, but this I can say I will be going to the dragon moon tomorrow, to see if I have in store credits!  So that should be good!  I don’t usually go twice a week…. But I am bored the other day!