I am still waking up, though I wish I was still in bed in some ways it would be warm, though I have a heater behind me that being said I don’t like the cloudy days! Especially rainy ones! That being said I just want to go out to the forest and for me to do that it would have to be sunny! Needless to say that I went to dragon moon that time yesterday and tweaking my back with a load of books. Thank god I have physio coming up as my back is toast. That being, the curve in my back is getting “worse”supposedly and I have to take physio. Which would not be a bad thing. I found the loads to dragon moon getting more and more heavier and I just found out they sold a book that I wanted, a real pain in the backside! To be honest with you I wanted that book about demons but I can’t get it now! I wanted that book so badly! But thank goodness there was a bunch of other books that I wanted the Silverstein books, these books are for children and adults. I was a little disappointed that the demon book was not there! But what can you do.
I am not a Christian, but after last nights nightmare I think there is a place that is for evil people! Though some people including my self would said that evil stops existing after it dies….even though my dream was about math, it was still demonic! I found that the there might be a hell! I can not believe that I said that -but I was far from the hell believer but it this and another nightmare I had was evidence enough of the hell realm! This other night mare was of the demon popping out from under the bed! That was frightening, I still remember it looking like a cryptid with shark teeth! That being said I tried to look for the entry of that but I could not find in one of my older blogs! I also went to a very severely haunted house in Perth, that being said I saw Hirohito’s ghost committing seppukku, ritual samurai suicide. That was a little disconcerting to put in politely! But I if I were to be honest: it was fucking scary and fucked up. Literally, I saw the man sit there and do his thing in the house! It was frightening to say the least, but also I started to go to my brothers place, John, my good brother and his house was full of an maddening energy. Then I found out that the last owner of that house killed himself and his family, not unite in that order that being said I found my self through up from there. Like I never through up like that before in my life, nit even with the flu!
I can sense energy and spirits though some dimwits would think that would be me going insane, that being said I don’t like those dimwits, those dorks who blindly put there faith in science and nothing else and would not believe in anything else…..well, you can see bacteria with you naked eye, does that mean they don’t fucking exist? No and that is the same with ghosts in my opinion. Some people can sense the ghosts and spirits and some dont, that doesn’t mean anything. Though I read some where that neurodivergent people are able to feel, sense and see from the other side of the veil! That being said I am neurodivergent, and the first ghost I saw was my pet dog running too me as I was sitting on the swing set before homework and after dinner. It was when it was dark. And the dogs ghost presented it self as a fog patch at first before forming into the shape of a black lab dog. That being said I ran screaming and the first fucking thing my mother said was, “don’t talk silly!”
I was nine years old at the time and I already figured from the at moment that my mother was not a safe person to go to with anything on my mind. This was a phrase that she would soon regret when I became a teenager, I would not tell her about the bullying that happened to me out if fear that she would not believe me! And this frustrated her. Well you know what they say, we create our own monsters and problems! That being said if she had never said that repeatedly when I was in middle school, things would be different. But that will have be for another time in another universe, as this one was already written for me! Though I am very certain there are other parallel and alternative universes that being said we don’t know for sure!
This weather his not good for me, as it is almost fucking nighttime and it is just morning, no I did not walk up at three in the morning for the second time, this is 9 o’clock in the fucking morning. But it is so dark, I hate it.
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