Personally I would recommend the song calm down by rema and Selena Gomez, I thought it was horrible some for the most part but then today I found that I was in the mood to listen to it. That is strange how music will do that to you, when you decided you’re in the mood for a song on the radio that is playing like right now! I heard this song before and I thought it was too normal sound for me. Usually I sound off with insane clown posse or that hard stuff that I usually go for. But the radio was playing, and it was that song! I choose to listen to it and actually enjoy it, I commented too my friends that was a good song! Personally I love the message of the song, show me that you can calm down, down!
That being said I was a good song, I heard it before but passed judgement on it thinking that I was the weekend who sang it! I don’t really like the weekend to be honest. I thought drake was terrible too but turned out that his music is actually good to be far, I did not tried the music before hand, the same with the weekend. Though I thought this new music was not good but it the message was good in the calm down song! Or the song that I call my anger management song as it literally tells you to calm down. That being said where was this song. In my life, I could have used this song when I was being bullied and needed to heal! Though I never really healed from the bullying, it still hurts like a bastard!
That being said I will tell you I was watching dark Asia with Megan, that being said she is a great YouTuber, and she touched on the fact that one girl in Malaysia was being bullied to death. This rang familiar with me, as I was beat up, humiliated and told to kill my self as a student by the dimmer students. It was frustrating and I punched one kid in the face for calling me the “r” slur because I did not like what he liked. That kid ended up in a 3 week coma because of his bullying. That being said I wanted to learn a better strategies with bullying as people still can be anatomy pieces still even when they matured. That being said the bullying i wen through did not result in my death, but the death of my dreams and I had to make new dreams. Personally I would rather be in law enforcement or something that makes a difference but I could not my self esteem is shit, and continues to be shit!
They were to girls who were particularly vicious to me, k and j I will say, and they verbally attacked and tormented me! Also calling me the “r” slur as well. They were supposed to be my friends and they thaught me that I needed real friends! As I did not see them as real friends after that. It really fucking hurt to hear people who knew you from potty training age to call you the worst name on the planet. That being I started to turn to music, the musician and bands like Sean Paul and papa roach who help me stay alive so I would not end up on dark Asia with Megan or Bailey Sarain as a victims. Though I don’t want to know wha twould have happened if I was not into listening to music….i would probably be dead by now, a victim of bullicide!
This is why I have an hand pan, a guitar and harmonica amount other instruments as I found that this was still my coping mechanism but now I don’t just hear them music i make it….obviously. Though I don’t have to that much to worry about these days I still get stressed as that is the way I am, and I still go on the guitar and belt out some songs of my own. That being said, I started to write my own songs after going to blues fest, as in the Ottawa blues fest and also after I broke my phone that was when I started to write my songs! Must I tell you that I broke my phone weeks and weeks after blues fest. It was unfortunate but at least I have 12 listeners because if it. Usually I get ten listeners, and usually in this continent. But also Asian countries to. That being said I like telling my story through music. I tried crystals (they work), I tried therapy (semi works), I tried medication 💊 (does not work) and I found with all three with music actually helps me 10fold.
I am a soft rock/folksy musician that sings about everything from love to counter-terrorism and astronomy!that being said I had to have some one identify my sound that was I emitting. And it was soft work folk rock. And I have the Ottawa blues fest to thank for this! Personally I loved blues fest though I did meet Susan aglukark many years ago! That being said music is the best anti-depressant at least your body doesn’t build up a resistance to it! That much I could say.
I also like going into the forest and find stuff ,either to take home or to see! That being said I started this to find antlers and a deer skull, which I will find one day but I need them for healing purposes! I am an energetic healer, example i cleared out a horrid cold that nearly killed me last February with just water, eating and crystals. Though I used a Tylenol or two, it was the crystals that ultimately clear out the stubborn cough out of my lungs!
Don’t get me wrong I love science, but when it comes the stubborn shit, shamanism and energetic healing will prevail over the science. As I foud that medications only cause more problems and other shit them clearing it up! That being said my are the two c’s: cleaning , and crystals. That will come out on top! I am perfect proof that I over came PTSD through crystals, and creativity and mindfulness (the stuf that your body could not build up a resistance to) and it works! That is why I got in the forest, it is literally my hospital, pharmacy, and doctors office- and I don’t eat anything strange I just walk around and take in nature, that being said I saw a good meme on Facebook once! It said that medication was shit and the nature was an anti depressant. Which I must agree to fully! At the time I thought it was true and funny now I see what the person was really saying about that.
I never thought that my life would be saved by creativity hand crystals, something I would think about, until now. I think I told you that I was introduced to healing crystals by someone named Shawna and she made a difference in my life. That being said I turned my PTSD into a lesser ocd and that was a crowning achievement. Though there were other factors, I am still healing from the fucking bullying that I was subjected to that being said I was introduced to crystals cold turkey! And I still am collecting and carrying around the crystals! I will never get enough if the things but my room will!
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