Monday, October 20, 2025

Monday October 20, 2025 AM

 It is  freaking cloudy out, though I don’t like cloudy skies as they put me to sleep and affect my mood!  That being said, scientifically I have SAD,  but that is a fancy way to say I am an empath!  That being said I feel other people’s emotions and feelings, and the weather also affects me.  As i preform better on sunny and clear days, I will try to be happy to day.  But that is it i am not going to enjoy the weather, simple reason I would not be able to go in the forest.  The forest for me is where I heal my self from emotional stuff. That being said I find the forest to be a healing place!  One thing I must  say i am more of a new age person then someone who would pop pills! I do take my pills I still do crystal work and go in the forest.  I found that the place is better for me then the actual doctors office! I do believe in science to an extent, but then for the unexplained stuff, I look to beyond the veil!  That being said, when I younger I smelled my grandmother’s perfume and dreamed of a ring, then I woke up to my father complaining about finding a ring under his pillow, that being said I still don’t think it is a coincidence!  This was someone from the other side reaching out to me. My grandmother was a wonderful woman who would give the shirt off her back!  That being said, I have good memories of her,  and she got me into romance novels as a kid!  The first ever romance novel was granny Dan about Russia, it was great but one of the main characters was a fucking quack!   I don’t like doctors for the most part.  Though the freckle on my left flank is benign that was the only good thing about the doctor. 

Personally I don’t like this weather of rainy and cloudy weather!  A I don’t like it for the simple fact that I would rather see sunny days and be able to go out in the sun.  That being said I found for books at the little free library that I usually go to yesterday.  I am currently reading a book from there, why in the world. It was one of the ones that caught my attention from there and I grabbed it.  Personally I am glad that I healed from my break up with my ex!  That being said I started to think that I gained a friend from that.  Personally I love friends more than having to date someone.  As I started to wonder when I would heal completely from this whole thing.

I will not say why I broke up, as it is still annoying the reason, not the person!  I also went to the reuse centre this weekend as I  started wanting ti read Tom Clancy books!  I personally love a good adventure book, it started to with the worlds most dangerous places by Robert young pelton.  A very good author.  And his book is one of my favourite books, a personal classic!  So it would be logical that I would re-read Tom Clancy!  Why do I say that, will I read him in high school to cope from the bullying that was happening to me!  My favourite what net force or anything that was great!  But when I was in high school I read the book stones by William bell for class!  That being said I wish I read it on my own accord as I would have enjoyed it!  Though I think I did, one reason was that fact that was I was learning to write for the first time for fun!  So I absorbed some of William bells writings into my writing!  That being said I started to write last year, a book called the belly dancer!  This was about the ghost of my birth mother haunting me but I never like that woman for the simple fact that the she tried to kill me slowly!  So I villainize her at every opportunity.

Personally my mother was forced to have me and left me for dead when I did not turn out to be a boy!  She was also “mentally disturbed,” though you need a working brain to be mentally anything.  She did not know how to use her brain!  



In the snow there is a coyote sitting there, looking 

At me as I come out of my place of employment 

As I look it him, 

He turns into dog, 

Then he shape shifts into a wolf

And then a human being 

As the human smiles and shows his teeth.

They look like a megalodon's teeth, 

Sharp and thin

As he lunged at me

A I see that he turns back to a coyote

His shadow now, shape-sifting  with each

Bump and snow ball

I am terrified 

And I am frightened for this 

Is a cryptid

A mystery monster

That nearly attacked me,

Submitted for approval of the midnight society

This is the tale of the coyote





I wrote this poem the other day!  Hope you like it!

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