I went to my singing group for the morning! I thought I would not be able to go because of the cold I was battling, more like going to war with it. The being said i brought my hand pan, though I am coughing a little it is rather annoying but I don’t that it will kill me, the on the weekend I thought I could not go because of this annoying cough! As I closed my eyes I saw colour where there wasn’t suppose to be colour when singing. I can see colour when singing and listening to music! That was fine I never thought it would happen to me. I have heard of this but I never actually thought it would be happening to me! Last time I saw white light, this time it was mint green with some blood red, like a bright red! That was strange, though some people think that you have to be born with this ability, that being said I found that I was able to do this easily! Though i am pretty sure I was born with this ability……I don’t think you have to be born with it! I find, like you don’t need to walk to enjoy life, it helps but it doesn’t mean anything! It is just a philosophy that I learned. I think that anything good can help to anyone with any ability. Just so long as youre decent person.
I thought I would be back into writing since getting my iPad, but I could not get into it again! I wrote on story about the storm chasers and then nothing after that. It was like if it was my swan song! The end of it- for now! That being said I found that other stuff was more interesting than just writing, especially on Halloween season. As I find there is too much Ichi sights, sounds and smells to pass up this time of year, sounds I would rather experience them right now! I also did the food box, it is a bi weekly thing that we do, and I realized that we were going to a favourite house, one with the ufo, and I mentioned that I loved their decorations. You would think that a ufo would be just a Halloween thing but it was a year round thing for these people. So I mentioned the damn ufo! As I love anything x-files and supernatural. That being said I started to watch the x-files when I was in grade 7, i was thirteen at the time. I just fucking loved the x-files! Now I am more of a cobra Kai fan! Though I thought I would never be one as I am opposed to karate, though I am not opposed to mindfulness. That being said I found that mindfulness was a more entertaining thing for me.
I am supposed to be more mindful about my emotions! Usually that is easy but then there is that odd day that is hard to do! These are days that everyone knows about, right? Those days when you just want to scream and yell and have a tantrum. That being said, I had one two weeks ago before I found the milky quartz that was a colossal fuck up! I just acted out of nowhere, something that never happens but it did the least. I found this strange as this something was not really a trigger of mine. But it does happen much. I guess I was having a shitty time that day and that one thing was a trigger! It was know everywhere about my stupid tantrum, so I will be releasing this emotions slowly! I never out of the blue decided to lost it, but this was a hard mouth I guess and my tattoo cost 100$ more, which would be upsetting anyone.
That being said I did not go to the forest yet today. It was a little too cool to do that today also I was caught off guard by the food boxes so I could not enjoy the forest for the day! Well at least I got out and enjoyed my self!
In the singing group we talked about what it was like the day after activating or throat chakras and I meant the day of the mystery tantrum I had, that being said maybe that was what got me as that my throat chakra was silenced by my parents, though they were good people they were ignorant mostly. One of I wanted to talk about anything they would say! “Don’t talk silly!” That being said I was a small child and found that some people were safe to express my self, and others not so much! And my orients wondered why I did not come to them for anything….i believe that they loved me, but did not know how to handle a child!
I also might a fellow countrymen today at the group, remember that I am central Asian by blood, well I might a neighbour from Asia, a woman of Chinese descent, it was very nice to see other people like me. Though I never thought I would see similarities with anyone physically as I thought and usually am a one in a million!
That being said said different races, and what have you are just that labels that people give each other, that being said I am who I am, take it or leave it, most people take it, but for the haters and the chickens who hate other people, they can just leave it. Also I had the best chicken burger this side of good at a food truck. As I never had it be with cheese and mushrooms! And onions too, yum!
Though I should be in the bush I feel like relaxing too!
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