Friday, October 17, 2025

Friday October 17, 2025 late am

I think I am going it write a novel in verse about the a ghost in the forest, kind of like a tribute to William bell’s stones!  That being said I read this book for high school for the most part, and enjoyed it.  It started to influence and was a big influence on my creepy writings.  That being said said i found that the stones, stones, stones being said out of nowhere in the forest was frightening but not traumatic.  Since then I found myself writing horror because of William bell!  That being said  he wrote the book crabbe, which I also read for school which was influenced the way I think.  I found that with stones, I did not want to read this because of the fact that it was in school, I wanted to read the book, worlds most dangerous places by Robert young pelton!  As I found that reading for school was for the birds!  Personally I found this annoying that I could not read the book I wanted , but after exams I was able to read what I wanted!


 As I lay in bed

A dream envelopes my bones
And I am in a vertical reality 
But there is not the goggles 
Instead I have it around  me all over
As if in a trance
She dances
But I see her she doesn't look like a healthy woman
She looks like a skeleton that is belly dancing
Is this one of my night terrors 
Or is this the end of it all! What I will not 
See is her face 
As her face was covered with
Hair and only that
She wears a belly dancers outfit
But she seems of corrosion
What is that smell
Acid
But I am not going to find out
So I try to wake myself up
But the banshee 
Keeps coming closer and closer
Until she reveals her face which looks like
Death warmed over and 
She lets out the scream
A scream so horrific it ruptures your organs 
A she sucks your soul from you body
Leaving an empty shell
I did know about this banshee I never....
I have had heard of the shadow people and sleep paralysis 
And I when is this what I am going through
I scream Susie wake up 
From christs sake wake up!
But I don't hear myself scream
In my dream
I don't stir nor make a sound
Who will miss me
If I should not wake
The belly dancers says no one
I am filled with dread 
I had a boyfriend
A life
Friends who cared about me
But here I was fighting for my life
Fighting against the ultimate evil, 
Death! As I try to thrash 
I succeeded in thrashing in my sleep
I can feel the breath coming back into me
And I thrash until I am spat out of the dream
When I wake up I am
In a cloud sweat!
As I am shaking like a leave
In the autumn
What the fuck just happened was what I think is going to happen
On in my head
My first near death experience 
But it will
Not be my last
For I fear the night now 



That being said I found that book  was important in my writing, especially when I started write more elaborately and nit for school.  It was strange how a book from school would have an impact on me!  But it did!  The only other book I read for school that I enjoyed was silver wing but Kenneth oppel which I loved loved loved. But it did not influence my writing but my reading tastes for the most part of my childhood.  I found that silver wing was fun, but I could not stand read in for school.  Then there was the fucking tutor, she made me take notes on everything I read…..god damn!  I hated that.  But this novel in verse was written out of frustration, as I could not give blood because of my past, let’s say that my birth mother gave me a reminder to me as a baby, like I needed anymore reminders!

I could not very well blow up so I started to write my emotions out and this, this is what came out of it!  Personally it takes allot of emotions for me to start writing!  And the day that I could not give blood, it was fucking emotional for the most part…..I was spiralling, wouldn’t you do the same.

That was when I was writing the novel in verse and saw that some one sat be side me and said that I was strong enough to ward the disease away on my own, and as a kid too that would have been remarkable.  Though I am still steamed that I could not give blood!  That was annoying.  

But non the less my novel in verse will come up with a the scary one day! I still don’t know what is going to happen with the day, but I am happy nonetheless.  I want to see what happens and see what else will go one except just the Halloween dance!

Also I found out that I have sushi for lunch😋😛


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