Monday October 27, 2025 late AM

My moon garden

 They morning could not have come quickly enough, though I wanted to sleep I could not because of this time of year!  It is so strange that I could not sleep and walk up at 3 in the morning!  But shit happens.  I see t the sun is out and I am able to see this tree burn again!  That being said I found that night time e is a fun time of day but it also is the most annoying for me to deal with as well!  Though for today I am going to take I easy as I was not able to sleep!    That being I might go in the forest to relax at little!  But I don’t know for sure!  And as for the shuck post cujo was a St. Bernard which was very annoying to be honest but that was what inspired king to write that story it was not the black shuck.   Though I saw I picture  of this thing and saw what looked like cujo!    I love a sunny day that being I enjoy going into the forest!   I enjoy the energy bath that I get from going into there!  An energy bath is like a shower or bath that cleans you but only with energy and not soap and water and you don’t go in the nude.  Especially this time of year!   I don’t even like being naked in the shower for the most part for most of my life, but also even more so because some ass asked for nudes on line and then went to blackmail money out of me.  That being said, I don’t like being nude for philosophical and safety reasons.

I would rather just help but thing that this will be good! Tomorrow I might have an apprenticeship at a  tattoo parlour but I don’t know for sure.  I think I told you how I got the interview, I just asked if they had the opening for the apprenticeship and I got an immediate answer, that being said I though they would say no, but actually asked if I could come in for an interview. And to bring any drawings!  Which I have!   That being said I will be working on my portfolio as I work through I am still not sure the I will get the dang job.  I will be floored if I get that.   I have been drawing since I was being potty trained!  

Need I tell you how I acquired this talent!  But, I have been drawing for 32 years.  That being said I am 36 now.  Going on 37, that would be another middle finger to the grimmer reaper.  That being said I find that I am too whiles for that bastard!  That being said I have ; tattooed on my middle fingers jusfor that  assehole.  I had tried to commit suicide  and even thought about it went I was much younger!  But something, thank god, stopped me from going through with it.  I was bullied and traumatized from age 2 to 14, and that was 12 fucking years I could have done with out let’s just say!   That being I am much better than I was back then I am a fucking fighter until the end.   That being I come from a long line of stubborn a

Ethnicities and stubbornness is bread in to me.  That was what saved me many times.  So that is why I have four semi colon tattoos, two on my arms and two on my birds.   That being said I wanted to help people who are in crisis, but that takes schooling, something I don’t have money for!

Personally I had started to moon garden a few months ago for the witch/shamanic way to help with my mental health!    Though it did not bloomed it was still very healing for me!