That being said I was also bullied in Canada for the same things again, particularly my race. That was annoying, I still don’t know how they picked up on that but they did. Like someone said kids can be cruel, that being ….they can be more then cruel they can be down right stupid. Personally I would be embarrassed with my children if they mistreated another student over the race if the student. I would disown them on the spot. I have dealt with prejudice and racism and the different bigotries that people would though at you! Before I had my DNA tested some idiot from high school, called me a dumb Iranian and I clotheslined them….naturally! And soon got into a fucking fight over this matter! Something that was annoying to me! I had been in fights over the matter of my race and ethnicity many times as a kid and I become more then an anti-racist, I become intolerant to hatred. I came from a town though was chock full of goddamn racists and white supremists.
Everyday when I went to the bookstore or where I needed to go, I would see the white supremists riding on the back of a pick up and blaring the shitty white power bands and yelling at me. It drove me more than insane and I thought I was going to go insane! From the sheer stupidity. The town it self was cute and most of the people disliked the racists but not to the point where I could not stand them. I would say hate but you can not fight fire with fire…if that makes any sense!
By the time Covid hit I was not leaving the house because of the fucking white supremists and their bullshit, I just could not deal with them any longer. The fact that I did not leave the house for anything before Covid with out someone escorting me was for the safety of the idiots in the town, not for my safety. I was a blue belt in taekwondo but I had black belt like techniques and I could very will hurt or do worse to someone when pissed or cued! That being said life was and still is too short to be pissed off about anything! So I had to leave aptown on that reason snd other reasons too! That was annoying but because of me moving I am doing better.
Also I went to live with other humans for the reason that I could have fought with my mother snd that would have not ended well either. She was cheating my father with a man half east around the world and I thought that i was wrong. So I started to resent her for what she was doing, still do to a point! That was annoying, but it had to be done. That being said I confronted my mothers lover and was met with death threats!
As I started resented her for the most time I was here for the some time. I started to go to therapy for this and what my shit head brother did! So I was hurting badly! As I started to just heal from this right as a was speaking. That is why I go to the forest repeatedly and is involved with crystal work! That would be why! This is why! My god that being said it was frightening to be betrayed in such away! That being said I think today will be a great day for the most part, but I never will now, hopefully the sun is out for most of the day. I do t know what I might do other then dragon moon and the forest. So that should be interesting!
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