Personally I am able to swirl three balls in my hand, for the longest time I was able to swirl two! It was not until some one was gave me a third that I realized that I could started to swirl 3 balls! As I found this very interesting…..I remember watching a lot of yakuza films when I was a kid and always saw the the Chinese stress balls in the movies. They were a staple in those movies and I wanted to learned to play with them, to swirl in essence. As I started to work with the woman named Tammy jones, a blonde haired woman whose husband owned a pair himself and he gave them to me ….did I start to swirl in Ernest. That was the beginning of my mental health journey was actually picking those balls up and swirling them as I needed to. I found that as I learned to use them I also found that people can twirl more the two balls in there hand. Five even sometimes. That being said I am looking for a fugi anti gravity ball or two to swirl. But they are so expensive for the most part. But I am stubborn and I will get one or two. The anti gravity balls you can do so much with them and it is very interesting to say the least. But I have three marbles that I use for stress relief! What you do is you swirl the balls in your hand and away you go. That being said I would start with two and work your way up the larger numbers! I have been swirling for as long as I have been an adult! And I found that I have referred many I people to the nerds as well. When was a friends son, and a friends daughter or anyone who is struggling mentally. This actually does help, as before the nerds I used to pluck my eyebrows out and not let them grow back. That being said I was endanger of not having them grow back again if I didn’t not stop my self. My father was get fed up with me plucking my eyebrows and would be manipulative in ever way to get me to stop. Though the numb skull father should have known that I had to stop on my own, not have him be controlling about that.
So I was in search of some to distract me from destroying my eyebrows! That being said I still pluck, but very very very rarely. Not even as a nervous tick again. Though I started to swirl my mother was getting fed up with the sound and called my nerds “the evil fuckers from hell!” I thought they were a god send….but that is my opinion! She had her opinion for the most part but I try to respect it, but remember these people forced me to do things that I was nit keen on for the longest time….why should I respect them when they did not respect me. Though I tried to kill them with kindness, something I learned about where I live now! It can not work…..they did not kill me with kindness, there was no kindness with them. I even called my mother a psychopath before moving out….something that I was not proud of but it had to be done….then again same with going to the bathroom, which is necessary but not nice. I had to do call my mother out for the most part of the live! Personally I think my mother was better than her shitty sister who is a sociopath. Something that is pure evil I have heard. Sociopaths are the ones who control the psychopaths and the other humans in their way!
Which lesser of two evils? Hmmmmm! I think they are both equally evil: psychopaths and sociopaths…..they are equally shitty! When they gain freedom they raise hell in a hand basket! Though thinking about this…..my mother was not a psychopath she was just at the end of her rope! And I don’t blame her as I was a the end of mine that time. Something had to be done about this! Personally I am not proud of calling my mother emotional shit but she had it coming. She was behaving like a complete shit that time, though she was a good person still I would not change what I did then because it made me who I was now, a better person.
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