When I was 13 years old I was on a cruise with my parents, nothing special it was a family vacation and to help me learn about different cultures and be anti-racist! This yearly ritual did work, as I don’t care about other people’s DNA nor religion but for the content of their character. That said, I was on the sunbird, it was a British ship, I tried to enjoy my self but there were too many balloons for my comfort and mental health….so I just wanted of! But not before making a penal! Her father’s was the head waiter on the ships main dinning room! Which was fine, but I never really got to having pen pals at school or for girl guides, so this was like pulling teeth out at that time. The last day of the cruise the father came up handed me some pictures of a girl, her name was Fatin from Malaysia! I was not to keen at the time but a friend and human one was what mattered to me! Though I would exchange monthly letters and gifts that being said this was not like the slowly app! I had to write my letters and it was annoying at the time, but I grew to love this girl like a sister that I never had. As I learned about her, she was Muslim and was interested in science, I was also interested in science too at that age i grew to be besties!
She was always telling me about her life in Malaysia and then when I was about the age of 18, she was also 18 too, she just poof stoped writing! And I was going to give her my Facebook and MySpace at this time. But she never returned my letters! It was as if she dropped off the face of the earth, which was unfortunate for me, because other than nils and Ana, she was my best friend. This still breaks my heart when I think of this I want to know what in the actual fuck happened to her. I looked her up on Facebook and MySpace and still do to this day but nothing.
I had bad look with friends that actually liked me. They had an annoying habit of disappearing. One example was Bonnie, a woman twice my age who I loved like a big sister. She disappeared after going some where and supposedly died in a terrorist attack, Radha de, another girl i new who was closer to my age same damn thing and now fatin was the third person in my life to disappear into thin air…..I still blame those fucking garden gnomes from hell!
As I look back I should have been a nicer kid towards the people but I was not, all I can do is be nice in the present! Even though I wish to say two these three girls- don’t leave! That would not stop them from going to where they went. This is still sad for me to deal with so I am just going to leave it at that! You can see why I took the online course on counter terrorism, I needed to.
Fatin, if I spelled your name correctly (which doesn’t matter) if you can read this and respond to this blog that would make my day as I would know that you are alive! If you read this please comment!
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