“ I have originally uploaded this app when it first came out out I guess in 2017 to 2018 I am amusing for the purpose of connecting with my roots that are from various parts of Asia and Europe!
I wanted to learn about the Asian side of me, particularly the Tibetan and central Asian parts of me! So I down loaded this app inthr hope to find more info on the people who are descended from the same ancestor! Of there years I have meet great people and lost a couple of people through boredom but I still down loaded this app in the hope of discovering this planet and parts of my self! That being said I found a couple of great people one in particular was a girl from the USA, from my goals but at least I meet someone similar to me as we both like horror and Creepypasta! That being said I still look for people whose roots are like mine!
This app has helped me in ways that a DNA test could not help in every way! Though I was never told about my ancestry until my mid teens i still wanted to explore the colourful roots first with a DNA test and when that showed I started to find people who were simplar to me on her and found that this app was more beneficial then the actual DNA test, as that just gave me some ideas. Though my adoptive parents loved me, they were not keen on talking about the cultures i came from! They thought I was nit that interested, they thought wrong! I wanted to learn about my distant ancestors form the east and west and see where I come into play in this world! Though I still struggle to find who my core self is, well at least I made some good friends along the way! I hope that anyone who wants to download this app, do not that you will not regret it, if you are in search of your self or for other people!”
This was the story I wrote for the slow app stories! That being said I use to go off and on this app since about 2018, the story tells the reason why I joined in the very first place. I still continue to go on slowly for the same reason but now just for friends. That being I don’t have very many friends as the ones that I did have were not my first choice in friends to hang out with or to be associating my self with! Example, all my school and of school friends were chosen by my parents and they were the most annoying creature - almost demonic -people who should not be on the street. Why you ask! For the simple reason were that they were bullies, and had personality disorders. That being said I am more apt to find and have the ability to find psychopaths and sociopath in this world more effectively then an FBI agent or profiler. Which was fucking sad to be honest with you!
That said the trauma i went through was awful in school, though their were to kids in my neighborhood who actually helped me out or I probably would be with out emotions or empathy, these two heroes in my life were nils and Ana hamster. Yes that was their last name. If it were not for them I would have been completely different then I am now. They have shown me kindness when the other humans in my life did show me great emotional cruelty. So there was light too that and I was able to develop social skills with killing my self or my integrity - though I would wish for things like Facebook, vampire freaks and slowly when I was younger they would come quickly in my life. Though Facebook is more a shit posting and vampire freaks gone I only have slowly to keep me from rotting into my self emotionally.
And most people think these things called emotions are rather quiet annoying. Though with the array of shit heads I had in my life I see that these things are very important and a blessing in disguise! This is what separates us from the: monsters, serial killers, animal and dictators that try to ruin our planet. And let me tell you that if I could find a few handful of the bastards in my life - they are people who are very common who want nothing but to destroy other people and their lives!!!
We need emotions for us to have some control over our behaviour and to let it out in an appropriate way that is for us then to start hurting other people intentionally. This is what I call emotion and empathy! With out these two things you are no better then the dirt you walk on, you will be rotting into your self. The fact of the matter is that If it where not for Ana, nils and the friends I have a slowly that being said I would be nothing more. I would be a robot just barely functioning in it on its own.
I heard from many people that you have to face your demons and your problems on your own! But this is true for finding the positive glimmers in your life too. That being said I mention this all to my mother about the amount of psycho/and sociopaths in my life she was horrified that she let these monsters into my life or allowed this trauma to happen! She just wanted me to have friends and it did not work out that quickly but with blow back….i had to live in my own head for my child hood and I agree with her that some thing should helped me and intervene with the fucking sociopaths that were plagueing my child hood. These were just normal looking kids and people who would not think to have anything wrong with them. You excepted monsters to have tattoos and piercings but that doesn’t always work out. It is allay the normal looking fuckers you need to really keep an eye on. Those were the ones that cause me great grief. Not the tattooed/ pierced fellowship that I belong too….but the normal lookers who are pure evil. I mean look at ed gein and other assholes like him, they look almost boring….so what would rather deal with a tattooed “freak” or a freak of nature? Personally I would rather the tattooed person instead of the freaks of nature.
You can say this slowly and a handful of humans help restore my faith in man kind.
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