Tuesday October 21, 2025 late AM

My queer coffee did not come through too, as there was a few issues, though I was hoping that I would not go…not that the people are good, they are but I just don’t feel like going today!  That being said I am just going to relax!  That being said I cannot wait for the open novella contest this coming year.  I wonder what the prompt would be this year though last year was about a distopian world were romance novel were banned, I believe that being said I had a perfect idea for that last year, but it was too late by the time!

 That being said I wonder what next year will bring for the prompt this year for the ONC on Wattpad!  Though I might started to collab with someone else with the writing project that being said I meet shawniece on slowly!  She is very fond of Halloween and horror too! So, this should be interesting nonetheless.   I always wanted to collaborate with someone on something , but the last person who did want to do that was too politically minded!  At least shawneice and I have a lot of things in common!  That being said I enjoy writing to her!  We are working on a “love story that is rotting into itself!” An interesting proposal I must add!  I like to collab with people I actually have things in common with!

The other person, who wanted to collab with me so many years ago was a girl named devorah lane, a real nut case who thought she was god in human form in a past life! Which was very unusually to say the least!  I should have foud that her name was strange (I sound like an 8 year old).  So there is two things that I am looking forward to!

I love finding people that I have allot in common with concerns for friendships, that being said having things in common with someone is like miracle grow for the friendship!  I never had very many things in common with very many other humans, not even my ex, who loved me!  Which was sad. 

 

That being said I would rather find things in common for human to talk about and work on!  I never had this before in my life.  Though she is miles and miles away, I think of her as my friend.  The fact of the matter is shawniece is a human being willing to be my friend with commonalities, that was the only thing I was looking for life.  

That being said I don’t look for romantic shit, at the moment, I just look for friends who I can get along with!

Just like that quote about American history x, this applies to friendships too, it is too short to be pissed off all the time, that also means difficultly finding friends on this planet!

I never have found someone who would be a good friend and have some much in common with me! The old science saying, opposites attract and likes repell is just foolishness too me!  I am pretty shire that things alike can attract in the human world, I found that I love meeting people who have a lot in common with me !  It actually helps with a lot of things in that respect!

I have been forced many times to be with people who are not like me, and that made me down right angry as well as being treated like shit!   One was two girls who I did not like who bullied me, I was forced to be friends with them. Another example would be the fact that my parents forced me to be friends with a neighbour because they were just above the poverty threshold, not a good basis of friendship….,though I miss this guy as a friend now!  I did not appreciate that forced arranged friendships I had in my life!

Personally I had one other friend who I talked to in high school, who I had 99% in common, though my parents blamed her for everything that went wrong in my life! That being said I don’t think my parents were fair to her, she never did drugs or drank nor smokes….though my idiot parents thought I should be friends with those types….it was rather annoying. Personally I don’t like talking to rich people unless we have things in common too!

I don’t get my parents, even though they are dead, I still don’t get them form time to time!  I wish there was a special type of autopsy that would make their behaviour make more sense! But there is not.  That is what I wanted to learn about them, why did they behave in a certain way - was it the alcohol or the other bullshit in their lives at the time.   We will never know!

Though I had some some insight when I was visiting my brother as to how my parents acted this was not enough!  And he said that my parents wanted everything to be easy for them and them alone!  Which is complete bullshit, but kind of true at the same time!  My o my, I did not like my parents drinking life style one bit!  I thought it was crappy!  And this is something I rather not talk about now, but it was very very annoying their lifestyle.